RaNdom ThouGhTs of an iNdiE giRL

A forwarded message was sent by a friend tonight. The message was stated as:

“people always look for the best and when they finally see it, take it for granted expecting to find a better one, not realizing that it was indeed…THE BEST”

I was tempted to reply to his text and maybe pull his leg over something I remembered way back as one lost love he just could never get enough of. I just kept the thought to myself thinking it might add insult to an injury. (lol!) I shrug the thought off my mind and continued with what I’m reading when I remembered to glance over my phone again and saw two messages in my inbox. It was from another friend, taking note of the very same forwarded message and asking me, in particular, how would she know if it was the best? I was smiling at the thought.

Most people believe in a fairytale, happy ever after love story. True love as they may say. We tend to become hopeless romantics. We fancy believing in that one true love. One person meant for us. After all, who could ever say there was never one?

One person meant for you. I acknowledged this as true. He/she may come in different packaging, at different time and perhaps at a very different situation.

And he/she may not be the one you wished for. But that person is the one best. Fitted to suit you. Either way, love may or may never come along.

The idea of waiting for that one true love is utterly indistinct.  You may never

knew how different individuals affects you. Some said, when you’re in love, you feel that “kilig” butterflies in your stomach, erratic heartbeats when you’re with

that someone. But the feeling would never last. After sometime, that “kilig” will

fade. So, what happens to that love then? Will it ever last or simply fade away?

I remembered arguing with someone way back over the meaning of love. I said

true love is real. Someone is meant for you. There’s that someone with whom you feel connected with. One you are willing to live and die for. When you will

find that love, it is the one to last a lifetime. But he disputed saying that love could wither and die if not properly nurtured, just like plants. After a while, I

altered thoughts and I believed him. But then, just recently, I changed my view about this.

When you found the one, you’ll just know. You could feel it in your heart. You

could tell it is the one. Circumstances may hinder you in pursuing that person and you may never hold on, or worst, time would just never allow it. And you are stuck believing that it was not the one, and you may find someone best. But no, chances are, the odds are too great to risk.

If you ever find that someone you feel really drawn to. Hold on to that person. Take time to feel. Take more time to love. Believe you found the one.  It may or

may not last.  But this, I tell you is true: Love will never ever disappoint you.

People say that I’m a fool
Well I don’t know
At least I found out
What it takes to be strong

I was dreaming all day long
A drifting cloud
With eyes wide open
I would choose not to see

Chorus
Now I don’t want
To see you any more
Don’t want to be the one
To play your game

Not even if you smile
Your sweetest smile
Not even if you beg me
Darling please.

Say good morning to the world
I hope you like it
Take good care of all those
Things that we had

I’ve been looking for a way
For too long now
Seems like everything
Must come to an end.

Repeat Chorus

Time after time
Nothing that I can do
Knowing your ways and loving your ways
But not getting through at all

Day after day
Leaving the past behind

Coming to terms with stitches and burns

and learning to fly again

currently playing this song by Fra Lippo Lippi in my head.  wala lang.  just love the beat.  besides, i’m sad.  i can relate.  lol!

i wish though, soon enough i could really learn to fly again…

“Oh, how we danced on the night we were wed
We vowed our true love though a word wasn’t said
The world was in bloom, there were stars in the skies
Except for the few that were there in your eyes.
The night seemed to fade into blossoming dawn
The sun shone anew but the dance lingered on
Could we but relive that sweet moment sublime
We’d find that our love is unaltered by time.”
- lyrics to “The Anniversary Waltz,” composed by Dubin/Frankl

we were busy talking inside mc donald over pancakes when i noticed this couple sharing their breakfast.  they were a sight to behold!  I could never keep my eyes to my food, instead, i kept glancing at their direction.  how lucky they are to ever reach such stage and they are still together.  i also took notice of their wedding ring. (chika kaayo!) the wife is still wearing it in her ring finger, while the husband, maybe because his fingers had became wrinkled, opted to wear it in his pinky finger.  how come it is still there?!?  i was really wondering.  when most men could never wear their wedding rings at all!   no, never in public!

i became nostalgic all of a sudden.  whew! blame it on the pancake!  it is really nice to grow old with someone.  better yet, share the rest of your life never worrying about what comes next, instead, enjoying it with the person you are with.  my jogging buddy jingle, had suddenly became hopeful to find true love…haha! now, there goes.  i told her, never look for someone who could love you so much, instead, look for someone you would love, no matter what.

feelings of gratitude for this couple…  i had the rest of my day relinquishing my melancholy and finding love.